gah... here I am, alone again... why do I try so hard? I've given it everything I've got to stay awake long enough for the sabre-toothed crotch cricket to go to work... and all for naught. Tell me this... where are you right now? What are you doing at this exact moment? Are you dreaming of me? Or are you dreaming of someone else? Do I even cross your mind? Am I wasting my time? Put yourself in my shoes... what would you do? I know what you said you'd do... would you want me to do the same? It seems so strange. Why do you think I stayed? Why do you think I care? Where do we stand? What do we do? How do we do it? How can I deal with it? Will I be able to deal with it? How long will it take? I hate waiting. Will my heart mend? Will I be able to look into your eyes? Can I trust you with my soul again? Can I trust you with my being? Where are you? Are you okay? Are you lying dead in a ditch? Are you drunk? Are you safe? I worry. I hate worrying, I don't do it often. Are you in bed with Lee? Are you in bed with someone else? Why doesn't anyone here know where you are? Do you care that I worry? Where are you? I miss you...